An emotional journey

So, I had a meltdown the other day and I feel it is important to share because it is an example of what we women do to ourselves sometimes.

Before going to see Cheney last week, I was WAY overwhelmed. The only status I could think to put on my FaceBook was that my juggling act was slipping. There are many hats that I wear everyday-Wife, Mom, Sister, Daughter, Business Owner, Friend, Community Outreach Director with my church... And each of those titles brings its own set of issues and involvements. Planning for the Tyrone Back to School Bash is in full swing (July 31, 2010-Shamrock Park, Tyrone-, more info to come). There are hotel arrangements to be made for two mission trips to Trinidad and Jamaica in late summer, I am helping to plan my 20th high school reunion, then lets talk about the 5 kids at home and all that involves... Is anyone else getting a headache???

So, when I got to Cheney's I told her first thing-I am going to be quiet today. I have to pray and chill. Well, anyone who knows me can understand how hard it is for me to be quiet and still. I was able to talk through some things during my treatments, but I was also able to hear from God. Though my mind was racing 90 miles an hour while I was on the table, I made the effort to listen to what God had to tell me. Here was the biggest revelation-God made me the way I am, and if I know that I have to schedule everything else in my life, IT IS NOT WRONG TO SCHEDULE FAMILY TIME. Duh!!! Instead of trying to be SuperMom and dropping the ball when it comes to my kids while juggling everything else--I will now put them on my calendar and schedule things around THEM.

Then, I also realized that the reason there was so much more frustration than normal with the hotels while planning the mission trips is--We touched the lives of over 200 people in Jamaica last year, and this year is only going to be bigger and better. So OF COURSE the devil is fighting me! There have been smaller meetings with our friends in Trinidad, but this will be the first time the full team comes in--more warfare. We were promised that there would be troubles, trials and tribulations, BUT---"be courageous, for I have overcome the world" John 16:33.

Now, my update on the Diva-doings:
Things are going well with Cheney and the work we are doing. There is no residual pain from any of the procedures we have been doing. The needle pokes are no more intense than a bee sting and will be SOOOO worth it in the long run. Make sure you read her posts! I am really looking forward to wearing sleeveless shirts soon without being so self-conscious.
I go back to see Dr Bill next week for an ortho check. I noticed yesterday that my bite is changing. The teeth that are hitting each other are different than before.
I am trying to be patient and let my hair grow before Revival gets a hold of it, but it is getting quite shaggy.
The glasses are still getting comments from people I meet. As I have said before, I think I wear them more than my contacts and that has NEVER happened before.

I am off to Ohio this weekend for a conference hosted by one of the members of NorthStar Pastoral Ministries. This is the apostolic covering I am the Event Coordinator for and the group that leads the missions trips. I am looking forward to seeing friends and showing them the work in progress.
Once again I am reminded of how blessed I am, and how much God loves me. I get to work with people I respect and honor, doing things that are reaching millions worldwide for the Kingdom, travel the world and touch peoples lives, AND God has given me one of the desires of my heart with this makeover. I get to share His love everyday. Like my Facebook status said yesterday---"God is so good to me!!!"